Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Another failure

I've had a huge, embarassing, horrific debating failure. I suck so badly and am so shit. No I'm not. Argh. I want to prove myself, that I am better than what I've shown. I have a chance tomorrow night, but there is pressure and I have to make sure it makes me perform better rather than worse. I am so just empty. There's no other word for it. I don't feel intensely sad or angry, just empty inside, with a dull ache. I just wish I could be good enough, the best.

2 comments:

beartwinsmom said...

Wish I could give you a hug. I have those thoughts go through my head all the time, and the medicine is supposed to help. Actually, writing it all out and finding a support group helps.

I like your bear picture by the way. :-) I love bears.

You can consider me part of a support group. I'm in the same boat figuratively, but we can try to paddle together. How does that sound?

Aurora said...

Thanks, I really like reading your blog, and you're right about how good it is to find people who understand this through the internet. It's funny about the bear pic, i was searching for pictures about depression and it came up with the subtitle "depressed polar bear" lol.