or not
it is just
so much lethargy
can't be bothered to get help
can't be bothered to take medication
sigh
so much to be doing
i'm not going to let this ruin my life, not now
but it's like living 2 lives
the life of the day, the anonymity of being someone who can study hard in a library
the life of the night, in home, when i should be studying, but instead am sleeping for 15 hours, or crying or listening to sad music to make myself cry, surfing the internet mindlessly, watching half of 90210, not getting any pleasure from such distractions
i need to start studying the nights away too so at least i have the satisfaction of hard work and meeting my goals
my mouth tastes yucky like toothpaste
i've had a very unproductive last few days, been in bed, or staring into space like a zombie, wasting a lot of time on public transport
i am worried that the taste at the back of my mouth is the taste of the steak i half ate that i tried to cook but one bit flipped over and wasn't cooked and i bit and spit out a raw hunk
yuck yuck yuck
Our Mummy, Marie Molloy: 1957 – 2023
8 months ago