don't know how i am going to survive until december 17

- if i don't get .9 or above, i'm killing myself

its as simple as that
and yet i feel like a wiener because i've never been brave enough to do it in the past

at the very least
if i don't get .9 or above i'm going to the bloody gap and going to have a think about life

god i'm pathetic
if i'd worked harder i could've been the .95
i'm a failure
i was so close
and i screwed things up